Mixed Emotions

Today is my last day of work. It has been a great run, but my time is up. Tomorrow I will embark upon my new role as a stay-at-home-mom (SAHM). I have very mixed emotions about this.

First and foremost, I love my children. Despite all the hard work I did to excel in school and get my MBA, I know my desire to be home with my babies trumps any career aspirations I may have. However, it is a hard pill to swallow. I've had the best of both worlds while working part-time: I was able to use my degree, interact with adults, earn some money, go out to lunch, run errands solo, call friends and family during my commute, and still spend two days during the week with Taylor and Matty. I will miss the "break" a part-time job provided. I will also miss our nanny, Becky. She has been such a blessing to our family, and I am so thankful that we found her a year ago. The upside to being home is that I get to spend each and every day with my kiddos. There are many, many moms out there who wish they were able to do this, and I need to be grateful that I don't have to work. I will be the one to drop Taylor off and pick her up from preschool three mornings a week. I will take Matty to Gymboree classes, and I will take Taylor to swim and dance lessons. So yes, we will stay busy. I've mentioned many times that Taylor is my strong-willed child, and I think it will be good for her to have the consistency that I'll provide being home every day. I attribute many of her behavioral challenges to the different authority figures in her life over the past year - me, Tommy, grandma, pop pop, Becky. Behavioral boot camp starts tomorrow. :)

Oh, and there is another baby joining our family in just about two months! Sometimes I forget about this little life event that will rock my world. Needless to say, I know it will be best for our family that I stay put for a while. Here's to embracing my new role as a domestic goddess. In the meantime, I need to go - time to shower and get ready for my last day at GE.